...I wouldn't be hot ALL THE DAMN TIME.
...I would have a number of cute clothes that fit me.
...I wouldn't have to hike my pants up every 2 minutes.
...I would have more energy.
(...which means my house would be cleaner.)
...I would feel sexier, and might actually like being seen naked.
...my cholesterol would go down to healthy levels.
...I would like having my picture taken.
...my skin would be healthier.
...I could wear shorts.
...I could wear skirts.
...I would feel like I fit in with my family.
...I could sleep in the van with my sister when we go camping without being uncomfortable.
...my boyfriend could put his arm around me at night and not feel my stomach rolls.
...my boyfriend might be able to pick me up. : )
...my mother would leave me the hell alone about my weight.
...I wouldn't be conscious of the extra weight on my body every waking second of every day of my life.
Friday, July 30, 2010
No thank you, I'd prefer to ignore the past.
It is a bad idea for me to go back and read old entries.
Part of my issue with this whole thing is how changeable I am.
For a couple of days, I will literally think about NOTHING ELSE but my weight, and how I'm going to change it.
And then, something else will come up, and it will be in the back of my mind, but not something I'm actively thinking about.
Then, it becomes just about maintaining my current weight, not gaining anything, eating basically healthy every day.
And then, I gain a pound or something, and it once again becomes the focus of my entire world. I think that maybe there's another plan that I could follow, or I resolve to follow plans already concocted, and the cycle starts over.
I have too many "new start" entries in this stupid blog. Not that I'm going to delete any...I'm firmly opposed to deleting records of anything, even if they piss me off. But, if I resolve to make a new start, from now on it's going to happen. Reading back through old entries just makes me feel like it's never going to happen, I'm never going to be able to stick with something, and I don't like that feeling at all.
That's why I'm planning this newest workout regimen weeks in advance. By the time I actually have to start it (August 30, one month from today), I will be firmly planted in the idea of spending a MINIMUM of 4 weeks on this new plan. 4 weeks of exercise is a lot. It shouldn't take me but one or two rotations to really start noticing a difference.
I need to keep in my mind how tired I am of feeling this way. Maybe summer wouldn't bother me as much, if I was thinner. I should do an "If I was thinner..." list. That's a good idea. That'll be my next entry.
In addition, I need to remember that, once I get the weight off, it's just a matter of maintaining it. I don't have to spend forever feeling like absolute shit...only as long as it takes to actually lose the weight. Maybe a series of notes or reminders on my phone, which would both give me positive reinforcement and remind me to CARE A LOT from day to day.
Hrm.
Part of my issue with this whole thing is how changeable I am.
For a couple of days, I will literally think about NOTHING ELSE but my weight, and how I'm going to change it.
And then, something else will come up, and it will be in the back of my mind, but not something I'm actively thinking about.
Then, it becomes just about maintaining my current weight, not gaining anything, eating basically healthy every day.
And then, I gain a pound or something, and it once again becomes the focus of my entire world. I think that maybe there's another plan that I could follow, or I resolve to follow plans already concocted, and the cycle starts over.
I have too many "new start" entries in this stupid blog. Not that I'm going to delete any...I'm firmly opposed to deleting records of anything, even if they piss me off. But, if I resolve to make a new start, from now on it's going to happen. Reading back through old entries just makes me feel like it's never going to happen, I'm never going to be able to stick with something, and I don't like that feeling at all.
That's why I'm planning this newest workout regimen weeks in advance. By the time I actually have to start it (August 30, one month from today), I will be firmly planted in the idea of spending a MINIMUM of 4 weeks on this new plan. 4 weeks of exercise is a lot. It shouldn't take me but one or two rotations to really start noticing a difference.
I need to keep in my mind how tired I am of feeling this way. Maybe summer wouldn't bother me as much, if I was thinner. I should do an "If I was thinner..." list. That's a good idea. That'll be my next entry.
In addition, I need to remember that, once I get the weight off, it's just a matter of maintaining it. I don't have to spend forever feeling like absolute shit...only as long as it takes to actually lose the weight. Maybe a series of notes or reminders on my phone, which would both give me positive reinforcement and remind me to CARE A LOT from day to day.
Hrm.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
A Plan for All Seasons
So, I've done some more thinking about this constantly changing plan, and I really do think that this could work.
My plan is this:
- Week 1: Gym. Either Gold's Gym or the FSU gym, which also has a pool.
- Week 2: Swimming. Either Mum's house or the FSU gym, if I go with that one.
- Week 3: Biking. Probably around Mum's neighborhood, since it's pretty huge.
- Week 4: Slim-in-6/other home exercise videos. Just at my house.
There are several factors I'm looking at here.
First of all, I hate hate hate the gym. So, I'm following it up with swimming, which I love. I don't know how I feel about biking, since I haven't done it in years, but I know I like doing the home stuff. So it should be fairly easy to follow.
Second, I need some sort of cooling factor included in my exercise plan. I got heat stroke while working on some school stuff yesterday, and it emphasized my need to stay cool somehow. Each of these activities incorporate some sort of cooling, whether it's air conditioning, water, or just wind.
I'll need to do these activities between the hours of 6 and 8, since this is the time when it's still light outside, but the sun is not at full strength. I'll need alternatives, since Tallahassee is absolutely notorious for afternoon thunderstorms. Obviously, the days I can't bike or swim outside can be spent at the gym or doing home stuff in my living room.
I will need a little bit of equipment for this. Gym: just workout clothes, which I mostly have already. Swimming: new bathing suit. Biking: a bike, one of which I might be purchasing this afternoon from a lady from Craigslist. Home video stuff: shouldn't need anything other than the Slim in 6 stuff that I have and my Wii Fit, which I intend to do every day along with the other stuff.
Now, as for what I'll be doing each day. My goal is to burn 250-300 calories each day during these exercise sessions, which will likely change when I start actually doing it. Gym: Warm up every day by walking for 20-30 minutes, then alternate leg/arm and ab exercises each day. Swimming: laps, mostly. I also usually like to tread water for an extended period of time, using only my arms or only my legs. Apparently, an hour of swimming laps, treading water, etc. burns over 300 calories, so that should be perfect. Biking: nothing else to it. I think that if I go 8-10 miles at around 10 mph, I'll burn a little more than 250 calories...I may need to work up to this, though. I should be able to figure out a sufficient route through my mother's neighborhood, in any case. Home stuff: According to the interwebz, the first of three Slim in 6 discs burns roughly 250 calories every half hour. So, it looks like this could be my shortest workout day. I'll probably do some Wii Fit to warm up on these days, especially since I'll already be just staying at home.
I think that the best way to figure in the Wii Fit is to do some yoga and light stuff before work every morning, and then get on it when I get home to warm up, or later on to make up for any calories I didn't burn during my other exercise. Basically, it's my supplementary plan. If I feel like I've done enough with my workout for the day, I may not do the Wii Fit at all in the afternoon. I don't know yet.
I have a couple of weeks to figure it out. I think that I'll officially start the week beginning August 30. That will give me a little time after I get back from Seattle to get situated. I'll probably start on the Wii Fit that wekk after I get back, though, just to sort of keep my activity level up.
This has to work. It really does. I'm so woefully out of shape. I need to have at least lost some of this weight by the new year.
Again, I'll do rewards later. I don't want to think about that, yet, since I haven't started. Later!
My plan is this:
- Week 1: Gym. Either Gold's Gym or the FSU gym, which also has a pool.
- Week 2: Swimming. Either Mum's house or the FSU gym, if I go with that one.
- Week 3: Biking. Probably around Mum's neighborhood, since it's pretty huge.
- Week 4: Slim-in-6/other home exercise videos. Just at my house.
There are several factors I'm looking at here.
First of all, I hate hate hate the gym. So, I'm following it up with swimming, which I love. I don't know how I feel about biking, since I haven't done it in years, but I know I like doing the home stuff. So it should be fairly easy to follow.
Second, I need some sort of cooling factor included in my exercise plan. I got heat stroke while working on some school stuff yesterday, and it emphasized my need to stay cool somehow. Each of these activities incorporate some sort of cooling, whether it's air conditioning, water, or just wind.
I'll need to do these activities between the hours of 6 and 8, since this is the time when it's still light outside, but the sun is not at full strength. I'll need alternatives, since Tallahassee is absolutely notorious for afternoon thunderstorms. Obviously, the days I can't bike or swim outside can be spent at the gym or doing home stuff in my living room.
I will need a little bit of equipment for this. Gym: just workout clothes, which I mostly have already. Swimming: new bathing suit. Biking: a bike, one of which I might be purchasing this afternoon from a lady from Craigslist. Home video stuff: shouldn't need anything other than the Slim in 6 stuff that I have and my Wii Fit, which I intend to do every day along with the other stuff.
Now, as for what I'll be doing each day. My goal is to burn 250-300 calories each day during these exercise sessions, which will likely change when I start actually doing it. Gym: Warm up every day by walking for 20-30 minutes, then alternate leg/arm and ab exercises each day. Swimming: laps, mostly. I also usually like to tread water for an extended period of time, using only my arms or only my legs. Apparently, an hour of swimming laps, treading water, etc. burns over 300 calories, so that should be perfect. Biking: nothing else to it. I think that if I go 8-10 miles at around 10 mph, I'll burn a little more than 250 calories...I may need to work up to this, though. I should be able to figure out a sufficient route through my mother's neighborhood, in any case. Home stuff: According to the interwebz, the first of three Slim in 6 discs burns roughly 250 calories every half hour. So, it looks like this could be my shortest workout day. I'll probably do some Wii Fit to warm up on these days, especially since I'll already be just staying at home.
I think that the best way to figure in the Wii Fit is to do some yoga and light stuff before work every morning, and then get on it when I get home to warm up, or later on to make up for any calories I didn't burn during my other exercise. Basically, it's my supplementary plan. If I feel like I've done enough with my workout for the day, I may not do the Wii Fit at all in the afternoon. I don't know yet.
I have a couple of weeks to figure it out. I think that I'll officially start the week beginning August 30. That will give me a little time after I get back from Seattle to get situated. I'll probably start on the Wii Fit that wekk after I get back, though, just to sort of keep my activity level up.
This has to work. It really does. I'm so woefully out of shape. I need to have at least lost some of this weight by the new year.
Again, I'll do rewards later. I don't want to think about that, yet, since I haven't started. Later!
Monday, July 26, 2010
In need of a kick in the ass...
I don't know what is the matter with me, and what it is that makes me completely unable to stick with any sort of program.
Maybe it's my birthday. I'm a Cancer, so I generally never have the same emotion or desire for more than a few days in a row.
Maybe it's the heat. Having reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder means that any time I spend outside during the summer makes me feel as though the world is an awful, gloomy, horrible place.
Whatever it is, I haven't been able to do anything, fitness-wise, all summer long. Since Portland, where I inexplicably accomplished very little in the way of weight loss, I have been basically a bum all the time. When I get home, I sit on the couch until it's time for me to go to bed. Weekends are for chores like laundry and floors, but nothing very strenuous. This is NOT how weight loss is accomplished.
I need one of two things:
- a workout partner who is relentless with me. "Listen, bitch...you had better be at the gym to meet me in 10 minutes, or I will come to your house and drag your sorry ass here myself." This has worked before, but there was a time limit as my friend then moved away. But this sounds boring, and monotonous.
- a changeable workout routine. A daily change would be too hectic, I think...but a weekly change might just work. A 4-week rotation...swimming, biking, gym, Slim in 6...while at the same time doing the Wii Fit every day? That sounds like it just might work, and be enjoyable at the same time. It's also more of a long-term plan than I've had before...the minimum time period to stay on this track would be a month. Also, if I don't really enjoy a particular week...like, say, the gym...all I have to do is finish the week, and then I don't have to do that again for several weeks.
This plan relies more on the self-motivation of desire, as opposed to some outside motivating factor. This plan sounds FUN.
I hate exercise. I also hate the thought of doing the same workout every day until I die. Maybe this will work for me.
I go to Seattle in a little over 2 weeks, where I will be camping and walking for the majority of the time. I plan to be 175 by the time I get home, at which point my new exercise program will commence. This will give me time to plan out how I'm going to spend each week, time to perhaps acquire a bicycle and a new bathing suit, and perhaps a gym membership and a friend or two to do this with me. I will not be relying on any friends to do this every day, though...I will be doing it EVERY DAY, regardless of whether I have 0 or 100 people to do it with me.
I'll set rewards later. I need to think more about this now. : )
Maybe it's my birthday. I'm a Cancer, so I generally never have the same emotion or desire for more than a few days in a row.
Maybe it's the heat. Having reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder means that any time I spend outside during the summer makes me feel as though the world is an awful, gloomy, horrible place.
Whatever it is, I haven't been able to do anything, fitness-wise, all summer long. Since Portland, where I inexplicably accomplished very little in the way of weight loss, I have been basically a bum all the time. When I get home, I sit on the couch until it's time for me to go to bed. Weekends are for chores like laundry and floors, but nothing very strenuous. This is NOT how weight loss is accomplished.
I need one of two things:
- a workout partner who is relentless with me. "Listen, bitch...you had better be at the gym to meet me in 10 minutes, or I will come to your house and drag your sorry ass here myself." This has worked before, but there was a time limit as my friend then moved away. But this sounds boring, and monotonous.
- a changeable workout routine. A daily change would be too hectic, I think...but a weekly change might just work. A 4-week rotation...swimming, biking, gym, Slim in 6...while at the same time doing the Wii Fit every day? That sounds like it just might work, and be enjoyable at the same time. It's also more of a long-term plan than I've had before...the minimum time period to stay on this track would be a month. Also, if I don't really enjoy a particular week...like, say, the gym...all I have to do is finish the week, and then I don't have to do that again for several weeks.
This plan relies more on the self-motivation of desire, as opposed to some outside motivating factor. This plan sounds FUN.
I hate exercise. I also hate the thought of doing the same workout every day until I die. Maybe this will work for me.
I go to Seattle in a little over 2 weeks, where I will be camping and walking for the majority of the time. I plan to be 175 by the time I get home, at which point my new exercise program will commence. This will give me time to plan out how I'm going to spend each week, time to perhaps acquire a bicycle and a new bathing suit, and perhaps a gym membership and a friend or two to do this with me. I will not be relying on any friends to do this every day, though...I will be doing it EVERY DAY, regardless of whether I have 0 or 100 people to do it with me.
I'll set rewards later. I need to think more about this now. : )
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