In need of a kick in the ass...

I don't know what is the matter with me, and what it is that makes me completely unable to stick with any sort of program.

Maybe it's my birthday. I'm a Cancer, so I generally never have the same emotion or desire for more than a few days in a row.

Maybe it's the heat. Having reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder means that any time I spend outside during the summer makes me feel as though the world is an awful, gloomy, horrible place.

Whatever it is, I haven't been able to do anything, fitness-wise, all summer long. Since Portland, where I inexplicably accomplished very little in the way of weight loss, I have been basically a bum all the time. When I get home, I sit on the couch until it's time for me to go to bed. Weekends are for chores like laundry and floors, but nothing very strenuous. This is NOT how weight loss is accomplished.

I need one of two things:

- a workout partner who is relentless with me. "Listen, bitch...you had better be at the gym to meet me in 10 minutes, or I will come to your house and drag your sorry ass here myself." This has worked before, but there was a time limit as my friend then moved away. But this sounds boring, and monotonous.

- a changeable workout routine. A daily change would be too hectic, I think...but a weekly change might just work. A 4-week rotation...swimming, biking, gym, Slim in 6...while at the same time doing the Wii Fit every day? That sounds like it just might work, and be enjoyable at the same time. It's also more of a long-term plan than I've had before...the minimum time period to stay on this track would be a month. Also, if I don't really enjoy a particular week...like, say, the gym...all I have to do is finish the week, and then I don't have to do that again for several weeks.

This plan relies more on the self-motivation of desire, as opposed to some outside motivating factor. This plan sounds FUN.

I hate exercise. I also hate the thought of doing the same workout every day until I die. Maybe this will work for me.

I go to Seattle in a little over 2 weeks, where I will be camping and walking for the majority of the time. I plan to be 175 by the time I get home, at which point my new exercise program will commence. This will give me time to plan out how I'm going to spend each week, time to perhaps acquire a bicycle and a new bathing suit, and perhaps a gym membership and a friend or two to do this with me. I will not be relying on any friends to do this every day, though...I will be doing it EVERY DAY, regardless of whether I have 0 or 100 people to do it with me.

I'll set rewards later. I need to think more about this now. : )